With the recent passing of my boyfriend’s father it is safe to say that I have started to look at both my life and my relationship in very different ways. So many things in life that used to stress me out just don’t matter to me anymore. It doesn’t matter what happens throughout the day, because at the end of the day all that matters is that I am happy.
I wouldn’t say that I have become a “go with the flow” type of person, because I am way too OCD for that. But it’s safe to say that I am no longer stressing about any of life’s small stuff. I am also starting to realize that almost everything in life is the small stuff. The things that matter to me right now in my life are my boyfriend, my friends, and my personal happiness; everything else in my life is just the small stuff and I am not stressing about it anymore.
I am starting to appreciate my life as it is and I am trying to be happy with the things that I have in my life; I am trying not to always want more. I am trying to have a child’s mentality because children only see the good side of everything life. When we are young we only experience the good things life, we haven’t had time yet to experience any of the bad things in life. This is why children are always smiling and laughing.
It is an understatement to say that this has been a big adjustment in my personal mentality, but like I said, I am trying to change. Sometimes in life there is so much pressure to have the trendiest clothes, to be the prettiest person, to have the most expensive home furnishings, and to have the most money; but the truth is that none of that stuff matters.
It Totally Doesn’t Matter That:
- My kitchen dishes are chipped and broken and I need a new set. I rarely use them anyways.
- My black sofa doesn’t match my brown Lazy Boy chair. They are both very comfy.
- I don’t have a proper home office, even though I work approximately 4-5 hours a day from home. I am grateful to have a secondary income from my freelance writing jobs.
- I live with my boyfriend and we are not married because at least we have each other.
- Every time I see my boss’ face I want to throw up because he is disgusting. He doesn’t affect my daily work and I just try to ignore him.
- I live in a small apartment that I hate because at least I have a place to sleep every night.
- My family is not close anymore because I have great friends. The effort with my family is not worth the stress that it creates.
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