Happy Remembrance Day Everyone.  As we get ready for our moment of silence at 11 am I started to think about all of the people who I have lost over the past few years.   Over the last 3 years I have lost my best friend Kevin, my step brother Michael, and also my Grandma.  May we remember all of the people that we have lost over the years, and may they all rest in peace.  I guess that it gets easier over time to deal with the fact that my best friend Kevin is no longer here, but that is only because I try not to think about him every day.  It is painful to remember my time with Kevin and it hurts me inside every time that I wish he was here.

There is really no easy way to get over or deal with the loss of a loved one; I actually don’t believe that we can ever fully recover from the loss of a friend or family member. After Kevin passed away I listened to a lot of Mariah Carey. The song Bye Bye really helped me cope with Kevin’s death because it allowed me to express all of my emotions and regrets; this song also helped me reminisce on the happy times that I shared with Kevin during our 7 years of friendship. I wish that I could tell Kevin every single thing that Mariah sang in the song Bye Bye; this is really ironic because Kevin hated Mariah Carey.  He didn’t like her as a person because he thought she was too much of a diva; and he didn’t like her music because her high pitched squeals hurt his ears.

Throughout our lives music changes as our lives change; but there are always a few songs that bring back memories of a certain time in our lives.  Music can make us feel happy or sad; it can help us express our anger or joy.  Music is a big part of my life and I try to incorporate it into everything I do because music, singing, and dancing are all a form of personal expression.  Think about the last time you were sad, what song did you listen to? Think about the one song that always puts a smile on your face no matter how bad your day is, doesn’t that one song always make you feel better?

Three and a half years after Kevin’s death I still get emotional every single time that I hear Mariah Carey’s song Bye Bye.  Sometimes when I think back on my friendship with Kevin I watch the Bye Bye video on You Tube; sometimes it makes me smile, and sometimes it makes me cry.  Either way it helps me express the emotions of missing Kevin.  I am trying to continue on with my life without Kevin but it is hard. I want to talk to him, I want to hear his voice, and I really want to spend time with him; but unfortunately none of this is possible.  If you have ever lost a friend or a family member then you understand what I mean.

Below are some videos about losing a loved one and trying to deal with the grief and move on with our life.  Just a quick suggestion, but if you are really going to watch the videos and listen to the lyrics then I suggest that you have a Kleenex box in your hands.  Remember, keeping emotions inside is not good because eventually we will erupt with overflowing emotions; so go into your room, watch these videos, listen to the music and let out all of your emotions.